Saturday, February 20, 2010

tell me, teach me,
coz i really don't get it.

9:58 PM

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

honestly
the main concept that
CNY reinforces is the
need for adult hypocrisy:
you can bitch about Person X
for the whole year round
and on CNY you
engage in seemingly
cordial conversations with Person X
because ______________

3:01 PM

it must be convenient.
overcompensating for what
you cannot give now by
overpromising the 'next-time's.
in a perfect world,
i could keep my unwavering
skepticism, blame you,
and hold you accountable.
but in our reality,
i know you,
and i know that you
need to do all that to feel better.
maybe you really believe it.
and i guess,
most importantly,
i want to.

1:21 PM

Saturday, February 13, 2010

you know what's the truth?
it's that
i can't keep up

12:47 PM

Friday, February 12, 2010

sometimes i think
that all that holds us
together is This.
and yet This tends to fade.
maybe when we were high on This,
we overstated the connection.
in the end,
the tricky part is what to do
after This is over.
the more i'm there
the more distant i know i've become.
somehow i think it has
always gone down like that,
could be me.
must be me.

12:17 PM

Monday, February 08, 2010

i'm better at explaining
logic and events that happen
in character and when im
in the respective personae that
live up
to whatever that's expected of me
by each of my social circles.
or anything
other than this.
i guess i'd better believe
the time-will-tell talk,
otherwise nothing would.
i think i've been here a couple
of times, maybe the difference
now, is that The Rest
truly don't matter anymore
because what i need is mine.

9:32 PM

Saturday, February 06, 2010

i know despair
i don't need you to know
i just need you to
accept that
sometimes i will be
despairingly miserable,
and when these sometimes happen
i would like it if you were around.

9:55 PM

Tuesday, February 02, 2010

sometimes i think
i can't breathe,
then i'd be like
wtf i must be
dramatising this
and then i realise
no this is really how
it sucks,
this is how it really feels.

10:36 PM